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app for somnia
PLAYER INFO
Name: Morgan
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Age: 36
Invite Link: here
CHARACTER INFO
Character Name: Toji Fushiguro
Canon: Jujutsu Kaisen
Age: Nebulously mid 30s, possibly late twenties.
If Under 16, why is this character a good thematic fit for Somnia?: N/A
Canon Point: After losing his fight with Gojo single tear emoji
Wiki Link(s): here
SOMNIA-SPECIFIC QUESTIONS
1. Dreams are how Sleep chooses you. What might draw your character into Somnia— a wound, a wish, a weakness? Would they follow the dream, or run from it? The thing to bear in mind about Toji is that the only thing that has motivated a majority of his life is first, survival, and then, increasingly, boredom, with a healthy helping of spite now and then to tide him through. He is someone who comes and goes with the tide, who lives only in the moment for himself and gives as little thought to the past as he can manage and none at all to the future when it comes to himself. The wound he carries is at the very core of him, the rest of him building up and around it like some defensive calcification of the soul. He's a man who takes contract kills for cash that he then loses on horse races, and the dream is little different from that. It's something to do, some distraction from who and what he is, from where and when he's from. He will chase it to whatever ends, because there is nothing else for someone like him to do.
2. Somnia is a slow unraveling—of worlds, and of selves. How does your character respond to fear, transformation, and losing control? Do they fight, adapt, collapse? The greatest illusion (and, perhaps, delusion of Toji's life is the one in which he has any control at all. He knows and accepts that he has no control over the world and his place in it, but that does not save or prevent him from trying to apply control to his immediate surroundings, to try to be strong enough, hit hard enough, plan meticulously enough to carve out a life for himself and a future for his son. He surrenders with one hand and grips tight with the other, aware that he is doing either, convinced within himself that he is simply reacting, existing, passing through. He does not think he feels fear, even as it is his constant companion and only friend. He believes himself static and resists change with everything in him, and yet he chases after danger and creates chaos with every breath he takes. His self comes pre-unraveled, and he only lived as long as he did by adapting to even the things he knew he could not survive. His limits will surely be tested here, but he's certain he's already been through the worst that existence has to offer. Everything after is just a game to play.
3. Connection is the only constant. What kind of bonds does your character form— fast and burning, slow and wary, deep and desperate? How might that shape their time in this world? Here as in all else, Toji is where contradictions meet. He can be all of the above, and he has no real ability to control how he reacts to the people who cross paths with him. There are times when he meets someone and the connection is immediate, for better or for worse, where they impart new meaning to the phrase 'gets on like a house fire' and there is no slowing or stopping the chaos. He likes to think he is slow and wary, and this is true in enough cases that he's able to hold onto that belief. But, at the core of him, Toji is a caged animal clawing for release. He had it once, the deep and desperate, though it did not feel like desperation then. It was steady, grounding, even healing. The desperation came after, and the desperation to have it remains, even when Toji wakes up every morning promising himself never again.
4. What are two major forces in your character’s personality that are often in conflict? (Ex: logic vs emotion, power vs guilt, obedience vs rage, etc.) The thing inside Toji that is at war at all times is a vengeful rage that rails with everything it has against his soul-deep despair. He acts like someone who has given up, someone who has internalized that he was born a foregone conclusion, and yet his entire existence has been a bloody and fraught endurance test he continued to claw against until he was physically unable to fight on. His actions and words are flippant and irreverent, but he involves himself when he doesn't need to, when he outright shouldn't. He himself is convinced he has no such resentments, but they underscore and inform his every choice, every action, even unto the one that led directly to his death. All of Toji is a walking contradiction, but his capacity for fury at all times has the rest of his personality by the throat.
VESSEL SELECTION
Which Vessel Type are you choosing: Token or Offering? Offering
Why does this Vessel type feel appropriate for your character? Toji is a beast of a man to begin with. Many would find him as monstrous as they come. To make the outside mirror the inside holds a certain kind of poetry.
Choose one OR list three subclass options within your chosen Vessel type that you think would suit them: Lycan
Samples: tdm toplevel
Name: Morgan
Preferred Contact:
Age: 36
Invite Link: here
CHARACTER INFO
Character Name: Toji Fushiguro
Canon: Jujutsu Kaisen
Age: Nebulously mid 30s, possibly late twenties.
If Under 16, why is this character a good thematic fit for Somnia?: N/A
Canon Point: After losing his fight with Gojo single tear emoji
Wiki Link(s): here
SOMNIA-SPECIFIC QUESTIONS
1. Dreams are how Sleep chooses you. What might draw your character into Somnia— a wound, a wish, a weakness? Would they follow the dream, or run from it? The thing to bear in mind about Toji is that the only thing that has motivated a majority of his life is first, survival, and then, increasingly, boredom, with a healthy helping of spite now and then to tide him through. He is someone who comes and goes with the tide, who lives only in the moment for himself and gives as little thought to the past as he can manage and none at all to the future when it comes to himself. The wound he carries is at the very core of him, the rest of him building up and around it like some defensive calcification of the soul. He's a man who takes contract kills for cash that he then loses on horse races, and the dream is little different from that. It's something to do, some distraction from who and what he is, from where and when he's from. He will chase it to whatever ends, because there is nothing else for someone like him to do.
2. Somnia is a slow unraveling—of worlds, and of selves. How does your character respond to fear, transformation, and losing control? Do they fight, adapt, collapse? The greatest illusion (and, perhaps, delusion of Toji's life is the one in which he has any control at all. He knows and accepts that he has no control over the world and his place in it, but that does not save or prevent him from trying to apply control to his immediate surroundings, to try to be strong enough, hit hard enough, plan meticulously enough to carve out a life for himself and a future for his son. He surrenders with one hand and grips tight with the other, aware that he is doing either, convinced within himself that he is simply reacting, existing, passing through. He does not think he feels fear, even as it is his constant companion and only friend. He believes himself static and resists change with everything in him, and yet he chases after danger and creates chaos with every breath he takes. His self comes pre-unraveled, and he only lived as long as he did by adapting to even the things he knew he could not survive. His limits will surely be tested here, but he's certain he's already been through the worst that existence has to offer. Everything after is just a game to play.
3. Connection is the only constant. What kind of bonds does your character form— fast and burning, slow and wary, deep and desperate? How might that shape their time in this world? Here as in all else, Toji is where contradictions meet. He can be all of the above, and he has no real ability to control how he reacts to the people who cross paths with him. There are times when he meets someone and the connection is immediate, for better or for worse, where they impart new meaning to the phrase 'gets on like a house fire' and there is no slowing or stopping the chaos. He likes to think he is slow and wary, and this is true in enough cases that he's able to hold onto that belief. But, at the core of him, Toji is a caged animal clawing for release. He had it once, the deep and desperate, though it did not feel like desperation then. It was steady, grounding, even healing. The desperation came after, and the desperation to have it remains, even when Toji wakes up every morning promising himself never again.
4. What are two major forces in your character’s personality that are often in conflict? (Ex: logic vs emotion, power vs guilt, obedience vs rage, etc.) The thing inside Toji that is at war at all times is a vengeful rage that rails with everything it has against his soul-deep despair. He acts like someone who has given up, someone who has internalized that he was born a foregone conclusion, and yet his entire existence has been a bloody and fraught endurance test he continued to claw against until he was physically unable to fight on. His actions and words are flippant and irreverent, but he involves himself when he doesn't need to, when he outright shouldn't. He himself is convinced he has no such resentments, but they underscore and inform his every choice, every action, even unto the one that led directly to his death. All of Toji is a walking contradiction, but his capacity for fury at all times has the rest of his personality by the throat.
VESSEL SELECTION
Which Vessel Type are you choosing: Token or Offering? Offering
Why does this Vessel type feel appropriate for your character? Toji is a beast of a man to begin with. Many would find him as monstrous as they come. To make the outside mirror the inside holds a certain kind of poetry.
Choose one OR list three subclass options within your chosen Vessel type that you think would suit them: Lycan
Samples: tdm toplevel